Changes

Can I just say that I am so proud of my husband! HE GOT A JOB!!! And not just any job...a REALLY good job!!! He actually got 2 jobs, lol. He started working at this little welding place 3 minutes from the house. We assumed since we hadn't heard anything from the other job since his interview and it had been a month that he didn't get that one. Well, we were wrong. His 1st day at the welding place, they called him! It took a few more days for them to officially offer him the job. But after working like 1 week at the welding place, he had to tell them goodbye and move on to this better job. He's loving it so far. It's so different from what he is used to though. He's done construction all his life...now he's sitting around doing pretty much nothing all day. The job has excellent benefits and endless posibilities for moving up and such. The only bad part is he has to drive 50 miles one way and it's going to be 2nd and 3rd shift. It's going to work out just fine though. Can I also just say that telling bama he would have to go back to mawmaw's because daddy found a new job was one of the hardest things EVER!!! OMG!!! I got done on my knees on his level and said "Bama, you are going to get to go stay at mawmaw's tomorrow because daddy got a new job!" My chin is just quivering! Bama says "NO!!! I need me daddy!" in the saddest voice you have ever heard. I was just fighting back tears! We went outside to play after that. I was sitting on the patio watching them playing ball just fighting back tears. I finally had to come inside and just have myself a nice cry so I could move on. It's not like going back to mawmaw's is the most horrible thing that could happen. He LOVES going over there. And obviously I was excited BJ found a job because I knew we were going to be hurting for money pretty soon. But knowing how much bama had loved being with his daddy and knowing how much he was going to miss him, just tore me up. Everything is fine though. Bama went back to mawmaw's and adjusted like nothing had changed. He's such a good little baby!! He is just talking up a storm now. He cracks me up. Nothing really new to report that I can think of.

Work is still kinda slow right now so I am sooooo enjoying that. I get to leave at 5 everyday like old times. I get to play w/ bama on my work at home days instead of working. It's so nice. Hmmm...what else is going on? I've been kinda down lately. Missing Gary like crazy. It's been 5 years since his accident. 5 years in just a few days since he died. He's just been on my mind a lot lately. I have so many regrets. Why didn't I spend more time with him? I was always so busy working and doing this and doing that. I should have made time. I wish I would have had the opportunity to tell him how much he meant to me...to all of us. I wish I would have told him much I loved him. I wish so badly he could have met Bama. I wish so bad he was here.